Sometimes, when I'm asked what I truly want to achieve, I ponder deeply. The word "freedom" has always lingered in my mind. The freedom to work, enjoy, and chat with the people I want to be with, and the freedom to use my time as I intend. Just imagining it brings joy and fills my heart. Such emotions also reinforce my belief that I genuinely crave freedom.
Upon regular self-reflection, I recently realized that I felt strongly that I had lost my way. I wondered why and then, I came across the resolutions I had written on my personal Notion page for this year, and I noticed that many of the goals were centered around my desire to achieve things through the company and organization I belong to. It dawned on me that despite always professing my desire for freedom, I had been relying heavily on the organization, people, and external market to accomplish my goals.
Therefore, I aim to spend the remaining half of this year differently. Regardless of external circumstances, I want to focus on what grows and deepens within me. I will concentrate on enhancing my decision-making abilities, starting from the small things and progressing to the bigger ones. I am fond of Albert Einstein's famous quote: "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." To achieve different outcomes, I will engage in new tasks, openly sharing the process of training myself through writing my refined thoughts.
I hope that when I revisit this article in six months, I feel proud of myself. - 25th June, 2023
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